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By on January 31, 2012 in Fashion, food, Musings

Proof that thin people can have babies just fine:

I have some gripes. But I’ll start with the positives:

Top Ten Reasons Why I’m Excited or Happy Right Now

  1. James. He’s the best thing. He’s my sweet one. I love him. He’s an extraordinary husband.
  2. We get to meet our baby face to face in approximately 151 days or about 5 months (I have a pregnancy App that tells me this)
  3. In 3 weeks we find out the gender of the baby.
  4. We are buying a new car.
  5. My rugs. I love my new rugs and how cozy our bedroom is.
  6. Unseasonably warm weather
  7. Free baby gear and clothing from my old landlord who is so sweet and has great taste.
  8. An entire week at a seaside cottage in Bethany this July.
  9. Tax returns
  10. My new haircut is pretty great.

Top Ten Reasons Why I’m Really Frustrated & Tired Right Now

  1. Gas and bloating
  2. Excess saliva
  3. Round ligament pains: all.the.time.
  4. Fitful, uncomfortable back-pain inducing nights of “rest”.
  5. The fact that I am just not a person who will have an “easy” second trimester. Never mind how rough the first one was.
  6. Indigestion
  7. Butt pain
  8. Unwanted advice compounded with what I thought was impossible: more comments on my small frame and “waif” body than I encountered in even the Jr. High school years. I’ve lost my cool with an acquaintance.
  9. Food aversions
  10. Extreme exhaustion
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On Friendship, Being 30 and 16 Weeks Pregnant…

By on January 17, 2012 in Friends, Musings

I’m 30! I’m pregnant! Two huge milestones in my life. Looking back throughout the years, the nebulous themes of being married, pregnant or 30 were all lumped into a fuzzy category of “someday” and were exciting prospects that I didn’t think practically about at all.

One thing I gave some impractical thought to was being 30. That was because I was a little bit scared of turning 30. The whole idea of it being a big mile marker in one’s life, the fact that my Mom had all of her kids by age 30, the fear of getting gray hairs or wrinkles. Nobody wants to think about that, but I’m a natural worrier so that’s where I went: Old. Gray. Wrinkles?

Of course being 30 is still considered young. I have years to go until I’m considered “old”. What I wasn’t prepared for was the amount of critical thinking about my life and future I would be doing at this stage in my life. Luckily, I don’t have any regrets about my 20s aside from wishing I stuck up for myself more often in job situations and had been able to spend more one on one time with my Grandmother before she died. My problem in life has never been about regretting things. From a young age I’ve been so afraid of regretting anything that I’ve erred on the “crazy side”. Over analyzing what my goals were and what I wanted to do, spending time worrying about not being able to do those things to the point of exhaustion. OCD is something I’ve had since I was young and the fears associated with what *could* happen (bad things) drove me to spend loads of time praying that none of these things would come to pass, but a positive side effect being my career and lifestyle because of hyper-vigilance and perfectionism. Continue Reading →

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Avec étonnement (with Astonishment)

By on December 15, 2011 in Music, Musings, Photos

Today I am in awe. I can’t wait to meet this little one.
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Happy Thanksgiving and Introducing…

By on November 24, 2011 in Musings

Baby Fishwick!

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First Drafts: How Sam Abell Makes a Photograph

By on August 23, 2011 in Musings, Photos, Travel

Since 1970, Sam Abell has worked as a documentary photographer, shooting primarily for National Geographic. Over his 40-year career, he has depicted Aboriginal Australians, Montana cattle ranchers, and the Imperial Palace of Japan. Here, in an exclusive video interview (via our bud Ross McDermott and the Atlantic), he recounts his year-long quest to find the perfect image of bison skulls for an essay on American painter Charles M. Russell.

This documentary was produced by Alex Hoyt and filmed and edited by Ross McDermott. 

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for better

By on August 6, 2011 in Friends, Musings

To my dear friend Scott, on the eve of his wedding. Thanks for being true-blue these past ten years. You told me once that “I have a right to be on this planet” and I think I maybe believed that for the first time when you did. And, on the whole, I think you’ve gotten me out of more scrapes than in, so…

I am so happy for you and Tiahna. Godspeed Mr. Hillier! All Blessings and Love with you, now and for the rest of your days together.

Dedicated to the happy couple (maybe you can slow dance to this in your honeymoon suite!):


Daft Punk – Something About Us

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How I Feel Today

By on June 20, 2011 in Musings

I’ve been out walking
I don’t do too much talking
These days, these days.
These days I seem to think a lot
About the things that I forgot to do
And all the times I had the chance to.
…
I’ve stopped my rambling,
I don’t do too much gambling
These days, these days.
These days I seem to think about
How all the changes came about my ways
And I wonder if I’ll see another highway.

…
And if I seem to be afraid
To live the life that I have made in song
It’s just that I’ve been losing so long.
I’ve stopped my dreaming

…
I won’t do too much scheming
These days, these days.
These days I sit on corner stones
And count the time in quarter tones to ten.
Please don’t confront me with my failures
I had not forgotten them.

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